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Drama is as Drama Does [03 Jun 2007|05:07pm]
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My goodness, it's been an interesting weekend. Never thought I'd ever see so much drama packed into such a short time span. Where should I begin?
Well on Friday I had two engagements that I was going to attend to, but it didn't exactly work out as planned (when does it ever?). I had been wanting to hang out with Violet and Bucky for the longest time because I hadn't had a chance to lately. So needless to say, when I found out that they were getting together with Sylvia that evening, I could pass the opportunity up. I had also told my friend, Rhonda, that I'd go to Caro's shindig later that night, but after having hung out with Violet and Bucky. The evening started well enough, I went over to Bucky's and I left my car there because I was going with them to drop off their kid, Adam. Afterwards we decided to go over to Victor's house (a mutual friend) and had a couple drinks there just to loosen up and have a good time. We were there for about an hour or two when Sylvia called us, letting us know that she and John were at the bowling alley on Callaghan (we had arranged this prior to going to Victor's). It was me, Violet, Bucky, Bucky's sister Adriana, Sylvia, and John. We bought several pitchers of beer that night so by the time we were done playing, we were all feeling pretty good. In the case of Bucky, maybe a little too good. You see, when we left the bowling alley, we were all feeling a little hungry so we were trying to figure out what or where to eat. Violet wanted to save money so she was thinking something cheap so Jack in the Box was the choice of evening. Bucky, on the other hand, had other thoughts in mind as he parked us in the parking lot just outside the parking lot (it was closed). After Violet tried to keep him from embarrassing himself, I suggested we go to Jim's across the street so we could just sit down and eat. By this time, Bucky was a little agitated and proceeded to walk across the street. I decided to go with him so that he wouldn't be alone while everybody else went in their respective cars. Anyway, we all sat down to get comfortable and Violet comes up to him to tell him we need to leave because they can't really afford to eat there. Now in hindsight I should've said something at this point just so we could all sit down and relax (they didn't have to eat) but I didn't expect for Bucky to just sit up and walk out of the restaurant. Violet went after him. They were gone for a good 30 to 45 minutes, the whole time during which I was trying to check up on them while the rest of us ordered food and ate. Eventually I figured out that they had a bit of an argument because Bucky was feeling a little "underminded" I guess you could say, because I won't get into details (not my place to tell). Needless to say it was mostly due to his drinking, because by the time we all finished eating, me and Violet had to carry him to the jeep. Violet wasn't exactly happy with him so she decided to put him in the back of the jeep (humorously enough, that's where he stayed until the morning).
Anyway, it was getting late by this time and Jenn had called me asking me where I was at. I told her I had meant to go over to Caro's sooner but I had my hands tied due to the fact that my car was at my friend's place. By the time we got back, it was around or close to 3am. I went straight to Caro's after that because Jenn told me they were all still awake and I at least wanted to make an appearance (I wanted to see Rhonda, and Caro). As I was going over there I was thinking myself, "Cool, at least this will end my night on a high note" but surprise, surprise, when I got there Caro was upset and crying while Jenn was trying to console her. I said hello, wondering what had happened, but I figured it had to do with Rhonda, so I went to look for her inside. She greeted me pleasantly enough, running up to me with open arms making me lose my balance (it was a funny sight). She was pretty trashed, but she seemed in a pretty good mood so I figured it must've been something minor that she had done hat Caro didn't like. I wasn't there for very long because everybody was getting ready to leave, but eventually while I was there, Rhonda tried to figure out where Caro was and went to go look for her, which caused a little more drama as Caro left and went back inside to her apartment. A few of Rhonda's friend's had to get her to just let it go because we had to leave anyway. After I left, Jenn informed me it was because Rhonda did and told Caro something she shouldn't have, which I again will not say due to the fact that it's not my place to tell; but we'll just leave it at it being something really stupid. So that was the end of my Friday night, around 4am, which sucked, but not because of all this drama, but because I had to get up early the following morning to go tubing on the Comal with some friends.
Saturday was a long, but fun day. I was on the river all day long, with good friends and good drinks with nothing more than a little redness on the skin. Again, it was the night that caught me off guard. I got back to my place around nine and I decided to chill for a bit before I got ready for a party later than night. This girl I was interested in and talking to, Lauren, was also planning on going so I figured she should come over to my place first and go from here, because my other friends were playing poker at the time. I figured when she got here we'd go over to Nelson's place first and go to the party from there. She didn't get to my place until much later and by that time my friends were getting ready to leave for the party. No big deal really, we'd just go straight to the party after all. We went in my car. The night started off well enough, but as we were there, she had a few shots and started to talk to the girls and guys she knew from H-E-B, which isn't bad at all in and of itself, but she started to distance herself from me noticeably. Everytime I tried to get close to her again or maybe hug her, she would just repel me or back away. She had sort of done this before in a previous outing, but it was more coy and playful. This time it was more intentional and her body language was just telling me she was not interested at all (especially since she was hugging up on these other guys). I tried to make the best of the rest of night even though she was dissin' me, but eventually I noticed she went out to the backyard with Louis. Now Louis is one of my bestfriend's here in SA, and I know Lauren and him sort of dated before, since that's how I met her, but my understanding was that they didn't like one another very much at all, especially her. Of course this notion got thrown out of the window after seeing that. I talked to Louis immediately afterwards and I told him it was fine, because she was already dissin' me big time, and because he honestly didn't know she had come with me. Of course he apologized profusely and said he didn't want this to get inbetween our friendship. At first I was trying to get him to take her home, because her car was at my place and I didn't feel like being around her any more, but some stuff came up with Louis needing to go home immediately so we sort of settled on all of us leaving together and then having her take them home. It took a while for it to actually happen, and the more we were there, the more I saw her doing things that were really upsetting me (she had probably kissed Louis and I literally saw her kiss this other guy from H-E-B, Victor, after that). My good friends, Tiffany, Lori, and Jess were starting to notice this as well because it was visibly obvious and they were getting upset that I was being disrespected like that. I'm happy they were there to support me, and a big thank you goes out to those three lovely ladies, but I just wanted to avoid making a scene. By that time I just wanted to get out of there and go home. Eventually we got back to my place. I didn't speak a word to her and I just said bye to Louis and went upstairs to my apartment. As I was going Louis asked if I was mad, and I said no but I obviously was, just not at him. I later texted him saying I wasn't mad at him, it's just that I couldn't stand to even look at Lauren after what had happened. Her number is no longer listed on my phone and I'm definitely not talking to her again. I doubt she'll call anyway, she never really called me during the two weeks we were talking. Even if she does, it probably won't be until like another 2 or 3 weeks from now, wondering why I haven't called, during which I'll probably explain why cuttingly and to the point.
So yeah, that was my eventful weekend. Got to say this has definitely got to be a first for me. But don't worry, I'll be fine. You live and learn and you go on to see another day, as always. I'll be going back to Eagle Pass tonight actually (I've been wanting to visit and I finally got a few days off of work). I won't be back until Wednesday. Until then, take care!

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oh, what comforting solitude. [21 Feb 2007|01:58pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Oh, what comforting solitude.
The varying shades of grey I always feared.
It brings a bittersweetness to the mind.
For what was once greatly dreaded
Is now a hated peace.
A disquieting solemness,
That simultaneously disturbs and pacifies.
Yet the longing remains,
Numbed, but steadfast.
For if even the worse were to pass,
An epiphany of pseudo-fallacy would surely rise.

I wrote this last night... I'm surprised it came out so well.
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Impressionless [06 Feb 2007|11:37pm]
I wrote this a while back and posted it on facebook and myspace on January 9th, but I forgot to put it here... well here it is now.

Impressionless

I am the future left unseen
To those careless, then forgotten.
I am the dust behind a frame,
And the leaf that is untrodden.
I am the footprint left unseen,
To eyes made and not begotten.
I am the mud scraped off your shoe,
And left on the ground unwanted.
I am the smudge too light to clean,
To go ignored, then unwashéd.

I am the friend who goes unnoticed
And waits for things undaunted.

R.G.


1 silent protest| speak your mind

Much Madness is divinest Sense-- [06 Feb 2007|11:33pm]
Much Madness is divinest Sense--
To a discerning Eye--
Much Sense--the starkest Madness--
'Tis the Majority
In this, as All, prevail--
Assent--and you are sane--
Demur--you're straightway dangerous--
And handled with a Chain--

-Emily Dickinson

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happy new year [01 Jan 2007|10:43am]
feliz año nuevo!
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